Saturday, March 17, 2018

Selfies….Lots of Selfies

Standing in front of the camera was never my favourite thing to do. I hated it when I was a kid and my mom wanted to take photos of me. I really hated getting school photos taken in high school. My wedding day was the first time I could face the camera without cringing inside. 

Our family photo albums  are plastered with photos of my kids and their dad. 

Then I got breast cancer. 

I bought myself an iPod to take photos of myself by myself. I didn't want someone telling me to smile because I sure didn't feel like smiling. 

Many of the photos are still too intimate to share here with you. Photos of my chest bandaged days after the mastectomy. Photos of the fresh scar that travels from the centre of my chest across to my armpit. Those will have to wait a while longer for public viewing. 

Below is a small sampling of self-portraits I've taken since May 2017. 

The day I had my hair cut in prep for it falling out.
The day my daughter shaved my head.

My first bald self-portrait. 

Second bald self-portrait.

A few days later with my favourite hat. 

Goofing around with hat options. 

Another hat.

A few months later when my hair was growing back quickly and I was tired of it all. 

More hair. 
I love this self-portrait. It's captured how I felt that day. I love how my eyes are looking up in hope while I was being swallowed alive by life after cancer.  

 I think that's enough for today. I now have way more curly, unruly, grey hair. My eyes are still dark blue and my left breast still sits where it was intended to be. Life goes on.


  1. Carole - thanks for sharing this - I admire your courage - regarding hats - I love the way each one seems to portray a different aspect of the self.
    I live with chronic pain (to walk or stand exacerbates this) - so life is very challenging - it is good that you are still able to walk around and participate in the world. I wish you a good recovery.

  2. Aine… thank you for leaving your comments. I am sad to hear you live with chronic pain as it affects every part of daily life. I wish you good days in your studio. I hope you are creating your amazing prints. Each one makes me gasp!

  3. It's a great series. For artists, I think self-portraits are really important. It goes way beyond selfies and all that other noise.

    1. Yes, I feel the same way about its importance for an artist.

  4. Aw, this was an incredibly nice post. Taking a few
    minutes and actual effort to produce a good article… but what can I say… I procrastinate a lot and never manage
    to get nearly anything done.

    1. Thank you. Procrastination usually hits me when I don't really want to do something!